i am 45 clean and discrete. i was in the same relationship for20 years. now single and want to explore and have the desire to be with a man. whether it be with a couple, a single woman or a man. i have fantasized being with a man for several years now. just thinking about it is a major turn on. i do not know if this will ever happen for me. really hoping it does. the thought of touching a man is a major turn on. to be with a couple and have a woman watch me with her man,,drives me wild. i hesitate posting a picture. i know lots of people,,have a good job and sort of worry about it,for now at least. i crave to taste a man. i can only imagine it would be very stimulating and satisfying. i feel like i am missing out on a great experience. i want very much to share my lust and desire. not reallysure what to say but will answer any questions. so ask away.